This blog i create to share my thoughts while I travel a lot between 2 countries and between cities because the jobs.

A good escape for me to mute my mind from my hectic jobs in the entertainment industries. The good things I dont expect to get judge at here, only want to release my artistic side minds and want to be honest for myself through my photographies and arts.

Helium Grafika


Anonymous

Q: so I want to contact you by email, how can I do that?

A:

elisalude@yahoo.com

dmcook:

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dmcook:

a follower asked me about time and how to develop your own style and i can’t think of a better way to describe that than what mr. ira glass has to say about it right here.

The travel intervention

I called off my 5 years engagement in January 2011, my families and friends are shocked. Every person we know, they mentioned I and my ex fiance is one of a solid compatible relationships and would be a good family in the future. I did not aware at the time, we followed the society structures as a relationship -engagement- wedding - have kids and then….where? Those steps choked me for 3 years while we had a relationship and I did not notice.

I doubt my fidelity to him and my commitment to be settle down for family thing in the future. I realized I was not ready yet and I was not being myself.  I always have a dream go travel and keep do my passion as an artist. The family thing were scared of me. I never talk to anyone about it even to my ex fiance. I kept it by myself. Until one night, I couldn’t stand anymore,  I returned from my job , I told him, ” it is done, I can’t do it and I need a space”. Yes , we have the break, he went to Thailand and I stayed at the same place where we lived. 

I kind of relief and shocked that I was being a single and I must do everything by myself. The hardest job was ” to explain our broke up to our closed friends and families “. Although we called it was a break for us. Both of us know, there were not reconciliation anymore. Both of us were hurt. I decided to find my new chapter and I told him, we were over. I told him for not expecting for ours in the future. Although he is still the best compatible person for me as a best partner and the best thing for me I ever have.

It is been almost 1.5 years , since of that , I become confident and strong to look for what I want. I do not regret for my decision, if i keep myself into the circle of society ( engagement to wedding ) I will never go travel and never back to my passion as an artist. But doesn’t mean I against to family thing. I will be patient to wait until someone able to understand the concept what I work with and I hope the “future someone” won’t change who I am.

Yes, I’m still keep travel and keep involve with any creativity environments. What I love are opportunities keep come to me and I prefer to see how far I able to reach them.

Weep not for roads untraveled
Weep not for sights unseen
May your love never end and if you need a friend,
There’s a seat here along side me.

Roads Untravelled - Linkin Park

Found these song when my old good friends start to vanish slowly because my job requires a lot of travelling. Even for my self I couldnt see myself where I will be to settle for the couple years.

My travelling and moving between countries/cities are too often and I miss all the moment as only a normal person or friend when they require me to spend time with them and have a long conversation about their new life.

I missed all their important moments include being a god mother for their kids because I hardly to see my self will be at the same place as their hope.

This year , I lost 3 very good friends, I wasn’t with them when they were dead. Even I couldn’t be there for their funeral.

After ” a month and a half “

The room alias my bedroom what i left while I travelled for almost 1.5 months.

My flatmates  have a thought I ran away :), even they can’t notice my existence inside the house.

Feels like home when I’m at my room, finally I’m at my bedroom but I’m still confused how to start to tidy up and organize my wardrobe again which I will travel ….again

A sweet Escape

There are some lanes in Melbourne and passed through accidentally.

Luckily! A camera always with me.

It takes me to another places. A while to forget what is to being a person  to give more, no betrayels, no cries, no hurts.

Your guardian eyes taken by Santa Octavia Elizabeth

Your guardian eyes taken by Santa Octavia Elizabeth

What a lazy ! photographed by Santa Octavie Elizabeth

What a lazy ! photographed by Santa Octavie Elizabeth

Uncertainty mood taken by Santa Octavia Elizabeth

Uncertainty mood taken by Santa Octavia Elizabeth

"It’s not everyday you find a girl who’ll flash someone to get you out of detention"
The hair moment photographed by Esya

"It’s not everyday you find a girl who’ll flash someone to get you out of detention"

The hair moment photographed by Esya

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