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The travel intervention
I called off my 5 years engagement in January 2011, my families and friends are shocked. Every person we know, they mentioned I and my ex fiance is one of a solid compatible relationships and would be a good family in the future. I did not aware at the time, we followed the society structures as a relationship -engagement- wedding - have kids and then….where? Those steps choked me for 3 years while we had a relationship and I did not notice.
I doubt my fidelity to him and my commitment to be settle down for family thing in the future. I realized I was not ready yet and I was not being myself. I always have a dream go travel and keep do my passion as an artist. The family thing were scared of me. I never talk to anyone about it even to my ex fiance. I kept it by myself. Until one night, I couldn’t stand anymore, I returned from my job , I told him, ” it is done, I can’t do it and I need a space”. Yes , we have the break, he went to Thailand and I stayed at the same place where we lived.
I kind of relief and shocked that I was being a single and I must do everything by myself. The hardest job was ” to explain our broke up to our closed friends and families “. Although we called it was a break for us. Both of us know, there were not reconciliation anymore. Both of us were hurt. I decided to find my new chapter and I told him, we were over. I told him for not expecting for ours in the future. Although he is still the best compatible person for me as a best partner and the best thing for me I ever have.
It is been almost 1.5 years , since of that , I become confident and strong to look for what I want. I do not regret for my decision, if i keep myself into the circle of society ( engagement to wedding ) I will never go travel and never back to my passion as an artist. But doesn’t mean I against to family thing. I will be patient to wait until someone able to understand the concept what I work with and I hope the “future someone” won’t change who I am.
Yes, I’m still keep travel and keep involve with any creativity environments. What I love are opportunities keep come to me and I prefer to see how far I able to reach them.
After ” a month and a half “
The room alias my bedroom what i left while I travelled for almost 1.5 months.
My flatmates have a thought I ran away :), even they can’t notice my existence inside the house.
Feels like home when I’m at my room, finally I’m at my bedroom but I’m still confused how to start to tidy up and organize my wardrobe again which I will travel ….again
Your guardian eyes taken by Santa Octavia Elizabeth
What a lazy ! photographed by Santa Octavie Elizabeth
Uncertainty mood taken by Santa Octavia Elizabeth